Over ten years ago, I was lonely and hopeless, lost without a sense of identity or purpose. Lucky for me, my family, friends and this community led me out of the darkness of despair by getting me connected with the help required to start a new life and cheering me on through my arduous journey..
My healing was a long process and Crossroads certainly played a crucial part in it. They gave my children and me a safe, structured place to kick-start my sobriety and learn a lot about my disease. I am truly grateful for their continued service to women in need.
I eventually realized though that clinical treatment could only get me so far – I could not build self-esteem from a discussion group –it must come the old-fashioned way – through hard work and learning to cope with life as it comes. My recovery also required a spiritual transformation where I became less selfish and more considerate of the welfare of those around me.
As I completed acts of service, I felt accomplished and positivity and hope seeped into my conscience, diminishing the incessant, debilitating negative self-talk. My actions expanded as I sought to replace the highs from substances with a more meaningful, profound spiritual uplift where I became more connected and useful to my community. Shame left me.
Eventually, I wanted to empower other women and help them attain their own enlightenment by setting the structure of a program around recovery work and volunteerism. I now have the privilege to watch the lights flicker on in their souls as they restore hope for their futures through service. I simply hold the lantern of my own experience to light the difficult path we walk together.
We strive to assist in many ways, helping regularly at the Root Cellar, community churches, Day One, Crossroads, the Red Cross, Winslow Farm and others. These contributions have created opportunities for conversations about who we are, why we are there and how it helps us to recover more than it aids those being served.
I believe the stigma of addiction is reduced through these interactions, where a living example of transformation is experienced. I know it can inspire someone who has lost their way to feel understood enough to ask for help. It can also transform the contempt for a suffering individual into compassion and hope for a fellow human with unrealized potential.
All of this is my dream. It is also my reality and it is the BEST HIGH EVER!